Parenting

Autism. Where I Stand.

Autism. Where I Stand.

March 3, 2014

I’m not one who courts controversy. I have strong opinions, and will often get fired up about things, just ask my husband, or online bestie Lisa. I often write a ranty blog post in my head whilst lying in bed at night, even going so far as to put notes in my phone, so I don’t […]

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A is for Anxiety.

A is for Anxiety.

February 21, 2014

A is for Anxiety. For her and for me. It is a strange world our little family of three have been living in, these past few months. The anxiety that has always been underlying Milla’s behaviour, has taken over, to the point where she is in a constant state of ‘fight or flight’. Her fear […]

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Dear Milla…

January 31, 2014

Dear Milla, Sometimes it feels that life goes by so fast. We jump one hurdle, only to be faced with the next one. There is no time to celebrate our victories, for worrying about our challenges. I tend to dwell on the negatives, let them weigh me down. I think throughout my life, I have […]

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I Jumped! ~ Wordless Wednesday

December 3, 2013

As you may remember, I have been raising money for the organisation Support for Mums, asking people to sponsor me to jump out of a plane, 14,000 feet in the air and hurtle back down to earth. Well, Saturday the 30th was the big day! Strangely I had been quite calm in the lead up to […]

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Exhausted

Exhausted

November 22, 2013

I’m exhausted. That type of exhaustion that you feel in your bones. You wake up in the morning, and before you even get out of bed, you’re exhausted. I feel like all I’ve done for the last twelve months, since we got our diagnosis, is worry and wait. Wait and worry. Waiting for services, for therapists, […]

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Six Years.

Six Years.

October 11, 2013

~10th of October 2007~ I walked into a room one day, thinking I carried one, I learnt I was a mummy to two, yet walked away with none. Identical in every way, including the angel wings they’d grown. Before I had a chance to know them, to heaven they had flown. They blessed me with […]

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The Rules.

The Rules.

July 7, 2013

There are a lot of rules in our house. Everything must be done in a certain way. Things must be in certain places, at certain times. Certain words must be used, or not used. We don’t make the rules. Autism does. If we don’t follow the rules, it takes hold of our beautiful, intelligent, funny daughter, and […]

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Safety In Numbers.

Safety In Numbers.

June 16, 2013

Last week, I felt myself slide into the dark hole that is guarded by the Black Dog. It had probably been coming for a little while. Sneaking up on me. I tend to ignore it, as if that will make a difference. Like if I can’t see it, it can’t see me. Until I find myself […]

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Autism Is Not My Agenda.

Autism Is Not My Agenda.

April 4, 2013

April is Autism Awareness month, and to be frank, it has been making me feel uncomfortable. My daughter has autism. So this should be my ‘thing’, right? Hooray, a whole month to raise ‘awareness’ about autism. World Autism Awareness Day was on April the 2nd. Everyone was encouraged to wear blue, landmarks around the world were […]

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What to write?

What to write?

February 5, 2013

When I started this blog, it was all about the “journey”. Where I had been and what I had to do to get to where I am now. To get my ‘Happily Ever After’. Married to my soul mate, mother to my beautiful daughter. All the crap that I lived through, all the pain and hurt, […]

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