Family

What I would say.

What I would say.

May 30, 2014

Dear teenage self, Right now, you are in such a hurry to grow up. You think that life will be so much easier when you are an adult and can make your own choices and decisions. Turns out making the right choices and decisions is a lot harder than you can imagine. You do eventually […]

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Dear Milla…

January 31, 2014

Dear Milla, Sometimes it feels that life goes by so fast. We jump one hurdle, only to be faced with the next one. There is no time to celebrate our victories, for worrying about our challenges. I tend to dwell on the negatives, let them weigh me down. I think throughout my life, I have […]

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Wordless Wednesday ~ Santa!

Wordless Wednesday ~ Santa!

December 18, 2013

The thing I love most about Santa photos, is having a record of how much Milla has grown over the previous twelve months. Milla had her very first Santa photo at two months old, however seeing as she was born two months premature, she was still teeny tiny, (2.6kgs, to be exact) and slept through […]

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Suspending Reality.

Suspending Reality.

December 11, 2013

You would think at 33 years old, and having lived the life I’ve lived, I would have more of a grasp on reality, and grown out of childish fantasies. You would think. Confession- I regularly ‘cyber stalk’ my ‘fathers’; both step and birth father. I wonder about them. I wonder what they are doing, where they are living, […]

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The Rules.

The Rules.

July 7, 2013

There are a lot of rules in our house. Everything must be done in a certain way. Things must be in certain places, at certain times. Certain words must be used, or not used. We don’t make the rules. Autism does. If we don’t follow the rules, it takes hold of our beautiful, intelligent, funny daughter, and […]

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Safety In Numbers.

Safety In Numbers.

June 16, 2013

Last week, I felt myself slide into the dark hole that is guarded by the Black Dog. It had probably been coming for a little while. Sneaking up on me. I tend to ignore it, as if that will make a difference. Like if I can’t see it, it can’t see me. Until I find myself […]

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Disposable Daughter.

Disposable Daughter.

May 13, 2013

The prompt for this post is “What do you miss?” I miss having a father. My mum and biological father split up when I was two. Although we had contact on and off again over the years, we were never close. We lost contact altogether a few years ago. My mother married my stepfather when I […]

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Wordless Wednesday ~The Girl We Call Moo.

Wordless Wednesday ~The Girl We Call Moo.

February 13, 2013

Lately I have felt like my blog has been a bit depressing and negative. So today I thought I’d show you another side of my daughter Milla, who we affectionately call Moo or Mooie. So far you know Milla was born two months premature, and that she has been recently diagnosed with autism. She is […]

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Diagnosis

Diagnosis

December 13, 2012

As we sat in the small office of the psychologist and she told us our daughter had Autism Spectrum Disorder – mild to moderate, it wasn’t a surprise. It was what I had been expecting. But still. The reality of it, to see it in writing in the report, the knowledge that this was something […]

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Not waving, drowning.

Not waving, drowning.

November 27, 2012

November has been a really hard month for our family. We have been in the process of moving house, our family car died, we experienced a crisis with a family member, another family member has become quite ill. I had further laser therapy on my eye, with the specialist admitting that it was not guaranteed […]

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