Depression

How to Stay Tan While Pregnant

How to Stay Tan While Pregnant

September 3, 2019

Many healthcare professionals are recommending the reasonable sun tanning process to darken or tan the skin. If you are a health-conscious person, then you have to know about the overall importance of the sun bathing and decide on how to be successful in your approach for sunless tanning. As a pregnant woman, you have to […]

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The Window To My Soul ~ An Update.

The Window To My Soul ~ An Update.

June 15, 2014

It’s been six weeks since my last major eye haemorrhage. My vision has slowly been deteriorating, even as my eyes begin to adjust more to limited vision. I have constant bruises on my body from where I bump into things, and misjudge doorways and bench tops. Being visually impaired whilst living with a three year […]

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The Window To My Soul.

The Window To My Soul.

May 1, 2014

My windows are broken, and the shards are tugging and tearing at my soul. Yesterday I had another haemorrhage in my eye, the worst I’ve had in a long time. (You can read more about my battle with Diabetic Retinopathy here) The blood has clouded my vision so badly, I can barely see. As usual, the […]

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One Moment Of Time.

One Moment Of Time.

February 24, 2014

*Trigger warning: This post may raise issues for readers who have experience with depression and/or suicide.* I’m lying in bed writing this on my phone. I don’t know if I’ll publish it. I’ve always hated bloggers who appear to jump on a bandwagon. Turn a tragedy into blog fodder.   The thing is, I can’t […]

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R U OK? I wasn’t.

R U OK? I wasn’t.

September 6, 2013

*Trigger warning: This post may raise issues for readers who have experience with self-harm, depression or suicide.* This is the most difficult post I have written on my blog. It is a side of myself that I keep very private. What I am writing about will come as a surprise to most people I know, […]

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Safety In Numbers.

Safety In Numbers.

June 16, 2013

Last week, I felt myself slide into the dark hole that is guarded by the Black Dog. It had probably been coming for a little while. Sneaking up on me. I tend to ignore it, as if that will make a difference. Like if I can’t see it, it can’t see me. Until I find myself […]

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That Damn Dog.

That Damn Dog.

June 6, 2013

It starts with the tiredness. I wake exhausted. Does the exhaustion cause the depression or does the depression cause the exhaustion? Doesn’t matter, because by then it’s too late. Next come the tears. I am on the edge of crying every moment of the day. If I stop for a minute, and just think, the tears start […]

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How it feels.

How it feels.

February 16, 2012

Once again, I am down low. In the hole. In the jaws of the black dog. How does it feel? I feel like I don’t have the energy to exist. That functioning is just such hard work. If I stop for a moment, and think, I cry. I don’t know why. It feels like everything is […]

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I don’t know.

I don’t know.

October 6, 2011

I have always wanted to be a mother. My whole life, I’ve truly believed that is what I was meant to do. I think I have even possibly uttered the phrase- “I was born to be a mother”. I have worked for many years in childcare, looking after other peoples children, and thinking I knew […]

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The Twins- Part Two ~ Healing

August 17, 2011

For a long time after I lost the twins, I kept it all inside. I felt like I didn’t have the right to be sad, to grieve them. I told myself that it was ‘just a miscarriage’, get over it. Yet every day, there was an aching sadness in me that I couldn’t shake. Every […]

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